Tag: mind-body health

Meeting Kundalini

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In meditation circles, Kundalini yoga has a big-girl-on-the-block reputation. Something about Kundalini yoga, at least in theory, lends itself to meditation, altered states of consciousness, and bliss.

Wikipedia says this: Practitioners
call Kundalini yoga,the yoga of awareness because
they claim it directly affects human consciousness, develops
intuition, increases self knowledge, and unleashes the unlimited
creative potential that exists within every human being.

Who doesn’t
want to unleash unlimited creative potential?

Armed with this
information and nothing more, I dropped into a Kundalini class this
week in Toronto.

I was nervous.
So was my brother-in-law Clay.

We’re both Ashtanga fans, and we
didn’t know what to expect. (I’m nervous with every new class.
In fact, I’m nervous at my own studio whenever I’ve been away for
a bit. If you have any tips on how to get over this, I’m all
ears.)

Adding to my
nervousness was the fact that I hadn’t planned on doing a class, so
I was dressed in my clown-stripe pajamas, heavy clogs, and the
t-shirt I’d slept in. I looked as though I’d just made a
hasty escape from an institution of some kind, an escape so hasty there had been no time to find street clothes let alone yoga wear.

We
hyperventilated our way toward the studio like a pair of shifty-eyed bank
robbers. It’s a miracle they let us in.

Lesley, a vision
of radiant health, dressed in white (is this a Kundalini colour? I don’t know), welcomed us as though bank robbers were the mainstay of
her practice.

We began with
some lovely chanting, and headed straight into the breath of fire. Do you know the
breath of fire? It’s a Kundalini thing. Rapid, forceful
exhalations followed by automatic inhalations. Earlier this year I tried it on my
own, limiting myself to a minute at a time. More than this, my sources say,
and you might make yourself dizzy. I’m able to coordinate
my breath and abdomen for about 20 seconds at a time. After
that, everything goes off the rails into erratic breath and no discernible relationship between breath and body. A steam engine gone berserk.

In Lesley’s
class, we never really stopped the breath of fire. She continued it through
almost every pose, including a series of core-strengthening moves that taught me I have no core to speak of.

Enough. If
you’re a Kundalini fan, I don’t mean to offend with my ignorance.
If you don’t know Kundalini any more than I do, I’ll say this:

I’m completely
intrigued. It wasn’t familiar. It wasn’t particularly
comfortable. But there was a sense that my energy might be mobilized
in a new way with this breath and these asanas. I sensed a connection
between body and bliss that felt promising.

This morning I ordered a
few Kundalini DVDs so that I can give it a whirl in my basement.

Are you a
Kundalini fan? Can you enlighten us? What do you love about it?

Thanks to Lesley
at Bliss Yoga Studio in Toronto. Thanks to Clay for getting me there.
Thanks to yoga for being 1,000 different things, and thanks to you
for the conversation,

kristin

Dr.
Kristin Shepherd is a chiropractor, actor, and speaker (About All
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The Full Meal Deal

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We’re a cranky household this week.
Neither one of us has done our morning practice for four days. They
have been four long, long days.

My lovely man’s been working and,
well, I don’t know what else. I’ve been doing late nights in the
theatre and feel as though my circadian rhythms, which include waking
at 3:30 or 4am, will never return to normal.

Pat walks by me two or three times a
day with his hand on his low back, moaning, “yoga, yoga, yoga.”

Come to think of it, my low back’s a
bit wonky too, despite the fact that my pre-show warm up every
evening is basically a shortened yoga practice. What gives?

What gives is that I prefer the full
meal deal. I love the dark, the early hour, the full practice, the
savasana, and my meditation. My low back and every other part of me
wants the stretch, the warm strength moves, the standing balances,
the back bends, the spinal twists, not to mention the focus, the
acceptance of what is, the self-love, and the love for the day. The
full morning gift to myself.

Can you identify?

So don’t call, don’t write.
Tonight I’m going to bed early, and I’m getting up at four.

I’ll be a much happier woman the next
time we chat.

Thanks to yoga for being such a
demanding friend. Thanks to you for the conversation,

kristin

Dr.
Kristin Shepherd is a chiropractor, actor, and speaker (About All
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Yoga and Money

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First of all, thanks very much for the
approximately 26 billion pieces of mail you sent after I posted a
short blog about the cost of yoga classes. It may take me a while to
get back to each of you on that one.

It seems it’s a contentious subject.

The mail indicates we’re far more
conflicted about money than we are about yoga. No one wrote saying, “I
have piles of money but I can’t stand yoga.” It was all about how
much we love class and would like to go more often. How lovely is
that?

Your mail made me wonder something. We
know that yoga spills into every little bit of life: into
relationships, food, career, parenting, political choices, etc.

Has yoga affected your relationship to
money?

I suppose yoga has strengthened my
impression that money is energy, and that the healthy flow of money
into and out of my life has to do with the health (or not) of my own
energy, of my confidence, my resistance, my fear, my flexibility and
strength.

That’s one new yogini’s thought.
What’s yours?

Thanks to yoga for showing up
everywhere. Thanks to you, always, for the wonderful conversation,

kristin

Dr.
Kristin Shepherd is a chiropractor, actor, and speaker (About All
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The Money Thing

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Can we talk about the money thing? Last
week, someone wrote saying it was a terrible shame that yoga costs so
much money and that the superstar teachers charge huge sums for
their classes. Yoga should be free, he suggested.

I don’t get it. Maybe I’m missing
one of the eight branches or one of the gazillion sub-branches
(twigs?) of yoga theory. Maybe you know something I don’t.

Here are my two cents:

  1. Yoga can be free. With a computer, TV,
    or even a library card, we can do all the yoga we want at home at no
    cost. How lucky are we?

  2. Yoga teachers, like the rest of
    us, like to eat and sleep on beds and take care of their children.
    Don’t they need to be paid in order to do that?

  3. Beyond the necessities idea, isn’t
    it lovely to imagine yoga teachers earning wonderful, flowing
    streams of money teaching us something wonderful? What a perfect way
    to live your life!

  4. Why would superstar teachers not
    charge super fees? That way, those who love to hang out and learn
    from superstars can, and those who don’t value the same thing can
    go to regularly priced classes or to the computer, where I’ll bet they
    can watch superstars teach for nada.

Perhaps something else is going on. I
wonder whether those of us who feel abundant and confident with money
bring that confidence to this subject, and whether those of us who carry
feelings of scarcity, resentment, and powerlessness toward money
bring our feelings to this discussion. Just a guess. I’d love to
hear your feelings.

Thanks to yoga for shining its
persistent light into all kinds of nooks and crannies, and thanks to
you for the conversation,

kristin

Dr.
Kristin Shepherd is a chiropractor, actor, and speaker (About All
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Mantras on the Mat

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“This too shall pass.” Sounds
biblical. Wikipedia says no, that it first showed up in the writings
of the Persian Sufi poets. This makes me whirling-dervish happy,
being a huge fan of Hafiz and Rumi.

Other sources say it’s credited to anyone from
Abraham Lincoln to King Solomon. I’m surprised Nelson Mandela
isn’t on the list.

In Canada this week, we voted in a
majority government that, well, the majority didn’t ask for. (Our
voting system is a long story.) The winner in my area won’t be
certain until a recount takes place this week. There was a 14-vote
difference between first and second place.

And, oh, the commentary is loud,
contentious, and personal!

For minutes, I swing with the intense
feeling of it. Outrage! Panic! Discouragement. Hopelessness.
Meanwhile, others are feeling joy, elation, power, new strength.

Then I begin my practice. By the time I reach my third Sun Salutation, all I hear in my head is, “This too shall pass.”

I learn this every day on my mat. My
body’s struggles will pass. My body’s thrills will pass. Same
goes for the struggles and thrills of my relationships, my work, my
community, and my country.

“This too shall pass” is my mantra
on the mat this week.

Do you have one?

Thanks to yoga for perspective and for
being there even when the rest of life feels a bit crazy.

Thanks to you, always, for the
conversation,

kristin

Dr.
Kristin Shepherd is a chiropractor, actor, and speaker (About All
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Gratitude Admist Chaos

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We’ve just finished move-in weekend
for the play I’m directing. Move in is horrendous. It involves
long, long days of actors waiting hours longer than I’d predicted
while lighting design people solve problems I don’t understand and
can’t begin to explain to cast and crew who would rather stick
forks in their eyes than have another half-hour delay. It involves
brief, sometimes angry directives to the impatient and the tardy.
(“Don’t bully me,” snapped an 80-year-old actor after I’d
suggested she get her rear end out of bed and over to the theatre
where we were waiting for her.) It involves regretting my angry
directives and throwing myself back into the day over and over with
patience and enthusiasm. It involves reworking facial scars that
don’t look right under stage lights, music and light cues to
program and reprogram, a labor scene in which half the audience can
see an actor’s crotch, and on and on. It involves eating more
sweet, puffy muffins in one day than is good for any human being.

It’s probably no different that what
many of you do at work every day.

Here’s what I’m grateful for: Hours
before this bedlam began, I was on my living room floor in
Savasana, thinking, “Thank you, thank you, for everything that happens
today.” No matter how chaotic the day becomes, I will be back on my
living room floor tomorrow morning, saying, “Thank you, thank you, for
all of this.”

It’s because of this, I think, that I
never feel lost in the chaos. The nuttiness feels temporary,
superficial, and less jarring than it used to. It is something I’m
doing, not something I am.

Has yoga given you this?

Thanks to yoga for telling me who I am
every day. Thanks to the beautiful cast and crew I have the honor to
work with, and thanks to you for the conversation,

kristin

Dr.
Kristin Shepherd is a chiropractor, actor, and speaker (About All
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Everything I Need to Know I Learn from Theatre

We’re in the middle of rehearsals for a play called “Talking With…” I wish you could be here with us, because the learning is fantastic. Here are today’s “lessons to self”.  (One of the  beautiful things about theatre is that it is not prescriptive.  I learn whatever i’m ready to learn today. You may learn something completely different.)

1. Truth is gorgeous. Trust that your truth is enough. Stop faking anything in the hopes that it’ll make you more substantial, more interesting, more charming, more successful. It doesn’t work.

2. Sometimes it takes horrible courage to give yourself to an audience or anyone else. Be bwave.

3. Stay open, no matter how tempted you are to close the windows, the doors, the gates, and the drawbridges.

4. Every single trait in every single human is inside you somewhere. Resisting that is a waste of your beautiful energy.

5. Joy comes from committing to your choices, not from endlessly assessing the merit of those choices with your squirrelly mind, which will never be satisfied and which doesn’t know the first thing about joy.

6. Your instincts are gold.

7. Not knowing is all right. Often preferable.

8. You’ll be an idiot to yourself and others some days. Practice instant forgiveness.

9. We are extremely fortunate to be able to play with others. Many thanks for that.

10. Cats and snakes are better actors than we are, given their inability to be anything but truthful. Don’t be discouraged by this.  Don’t be discouraged for long about anything.

Thanks for the conversation,

kristin

Beginner’s Mind

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It might be that a blog called
Beginner’s Mind is the best thing that ever happened to my yoga
practice.

When I began writing this a year ago,
the wonderful people at Yoga Journal gave me this title. I’d been
back in full-on practice for seven months at that point, and thought
it’d be a great idea to have someone writing from the back of the
class. True, I’d done sessions of classes on and off over decades,
but I was a beginner.

Nothing has changed that. I keep
waiting to grow out of it. It doesn’t happen.

I adore being a beginner. Here are a
few benefits:

1. There is enormous freedom in not
knowing, and not having to know. One of our favorite expressions at
home is, “If we don’t know yet, then we don’t need to know
yet.” Every morning I begin practice truly not knowing what will
happen, what my mind and body will do with this first pose, even why
I’m really here on the mat. This amounts to committing myself to a
sense of wonder, which feels healthy and good. I think it’s
beginning to spread into the rest of my day. Thanks, thanks for
that.

2. Being a beginner means that I am
happily the student of each yogi and yogini who writes in response
to these posts, both at YJ.com and on Facebook. That has been completely
humbling and almost always joyous.

3. The energy associated with “you
should …” is a drag: rigid, limiting, heavy, and sour. As long as
I remain a beginner, I hope not to wag an I-know-better finger
in anyone’s face. (This applies to my kids, my lovely man, and my
friends. Your path is your path.) If you hear “you should” come
out of my mouth, please, PLEASE, give me a raised-leg balance-pose
kick to the head.

4. I still practice in my clown-stripe
pajamas. I’ve given up thinking I’ll graduate to something
fancier in the mornings. Beginner’s comfort.

5. Competition and perfectionism have
been big parts of my life. If I ever become anything but a beginner,
I suspect those traits will do their best to crash my yoga party,
which is happy, forgiving, and peaceful party most mornings.

Are you a beginner, or have you
peacefully moved on to something other than beginner?

Thanks to yoga for keeping me in
kindergarten. I like it here. Thanks to Grace Smith’s boyfriend, who took the picture of the cat. And thanks to you for the
conversation,

kristin

Dr.
Kristin Shepherd is a chiropractor, actor, and speaker (About All
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The Reasons We Love Practice

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This week I asked every yogi
I met what their favorite part of practice is right now, today, in
this moment.

Here are some answers:

1. The sounds my feet make as they let go
at the beginning of practice.

2. I practiced this morning, so I’m done for the day.

3. The practice itself. (This, from my
lovely man who would not be more specific. My answer is my answer,
he said.)

4. The fact that yoga feels like home when
everything else is in packing boxes. (That’s me. We’re moving in
two days.)

5. A sense of peace that comes with it.

6. Alone time.

7. Time with other people who love yoga.

8. The clothes. (!)

9. Savasansa. (From someone who
guaranteed me this answer will never change.)

10. Kirtan with Krishna Das. (All right, this is me again.)

In a couple of words, what are your
favorite things about your practice right now? (I wonder how often
they change?)

Thanks for playing. I hope we’re
amazed by the variety of answers.

Thanks to yoga for being exactly what I
want every week. Thanks to you for the same thing, and for the
conversation,

kristin

Dr.
Kristin Shepherd is a chiropractor, actor, and speaker (About All
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Something Happened to Fear

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In the middle of a photo shoot
yesterday involving a snake slithering across my
fake-tattooed-but-otherwise-naked back, it occurred to me that some
huge shift in fear has occurred during the last year.

Yoga is responsible. That sounds
ridiculous, but it’s true.

Ten years ago I would have said yes to
this photo shoot but I would have pushed through fear, leapt at fear,
taken a defiant run at fear, in order to do it. The thrills associated with this approach were tremendous, but I lived in a kind of
adrenaline whiplash state much of the time. (Am I terrified? Yes!
Let’s go!)

It was often followed by emotional and physical crash landings involving headaches, large bags of chips, and day-long naps.

What the practice of yoga and meditation have created in me is a
stronger and surprisingly effortless focus on what is in front of me, and a weaker attachment to the scary stories I used to invent about what might happen.

My hamstrings are tight
today, but this doesn’t mean they’re destined to be tight forever. I held a handstand for
eight breaths today. I’ll be fine if this isn’t the case next week.
I love pigeon this morning. That’s good. I don’t love camel
today. That’s fine. It’s possible I’m discovering
presence. The here and now.

All of which has a huge effect on fear, fear
having everything to do with fabricated stories about what might happen next.

When I found out I was going
to be the snake model, I didn’t give it a thought. I have no
explanation for this except that scary stories don’t take up the mental space they used to.

When Benny the ball python was plunked on my
back and began slip-sliding his way here and there, I didn’t think at all. I did feel him, all four feet of him. Truth is he felt wonderful:
soft, smooth, comforting. Comforting!

Come to think of it, huge chunks of fear having to do with money, career, health, and love have also largely disappeared this year. I didn’t notice it happening, and I don’t know where they went, but they’re gone.

Can you identify with this at all? Has yoga affected fear in you?

Thanks to Benny the snake, and Allie, Benny’s owner. Thanks to Liz Lott of Snapdragon Photography for the fabulous experience. Thanks to yoga for this unexpected development, and thanks to you for the conversation,

kristin


Dr.
Kristin Shepherd is a chiropractor, actor, and speaker (About All
Things Wonderful) in North Bay, Ontario.  Join her on the
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